Reflecting

Hmm lets see, haven't had much to really write about. Maybe it's because I've run out of things to be depressed about, since most of my ramblings came from that kind of source. I suppose that's a good thing. But I'm not really holding true to my personal goals here, which was to keep blogging and writing poetry. I haven't written a poem since I finished up my Poetry Writing class in May. It surprises me how much I miss it. As for reading for pleasure over the summer, that too seems to have been put on hold. Not sure why, but it has. Don't get me wrong, I found it very enjoyable and relaxing. I suppose I stopped all these things because I get bored of the same repetitive things in my life. I don't particularly like this part of myself because I see it as a loss of motivation, which is something I sorely need in my life. I know what I lack in my life, I just don't know how to stay on track. Determination and motivation are things that are not easily kept on my mind and I believe for me, they should be at the forefront. Maybe then I could enjoy life to it's fullest potential.

I Miss Someone, Somewhere

I miss someone, somewhere. She is stale, she is a ghost, her features completely changed by a source I do not know. A source that we both drove and did not. I hurt and we hurt together in the facade that was our friendship, but I enjoyed it. Did you? Because now that I'm better I've reached out to grab the air where your arm should be. And once again I feel the white, aching pain of loneliness that teeters on the edge of stupidity. Why should I waste my precious breath reaching out after our mistakes and be met with a stone wall of white? I recognize this idiocy with great irritability but cannot stop. I'll tell you why: the fond memories are too good to pass up.

Relapse

Don't know, been off the past few days. Maybe it's time this nice streak ended. And though I'll mourn the leave of the person I was able to become, I'll mourn more for becoming who I used to be.

My Name is Bree and I'm Happy

:/

Took Chica to the vet yesterday and got some alarming news...But I think we caught it early enough. She's going to need surgery. I'm really scared. I hope my best friend will be okay.

Just Be Happy

I wish the people that I love could be happy.