Blood Beats Water

Stumbled upon this old entry of mine I wrote a long time ago. I found it among my drafts. It seems fitting now.


Hate is poison. When we were kids, we often threw that word at each other but never meant it. It means something to me now, and when you use it against me it's a stake to the heart. It's not something that can be taken lightly. Once you say it, it's engraved forever in the heart and mind of the person who you set aim to. Your inner turmoil: roots tainted with hatred overgrowing and crushing you from the inside out. It will destroy every fiber of who you are if you let it reign free.

"There's a chip on your shoulder, girl
and by God it'll make you fall
if you let it take a part of your soul.

And due to a pressing concern that only YOU know about, you've left us- your family- dazed in the rage path you left behind. You complain about lack of communication in our unit. Don't be a hypocrite and do exactly what you whine about. You must DO what you preach.

I see the love in your brother's eyes
and the love in your mother's cries-
Sister don't test the ones you love.

Sister don't let go-
Sister don't let go of us.

So if this is what you initially wanted, you will receive. You can dig up garbage I've done in the past but nothing will ever equal to what you've done. You're turning your back on blood for something you mistakenly feel is far better. Nothing will ever replace your family no matter how hard you try to find candidates. And when you've finished taking a sledge hammer to our family portrait, you will feel the familiar feeling of regret setting in once again. But apologies won't suffice this time.

Cause your roots will rot away
and your fruit, it wont grow.
Your bark will wear thin, body hollow.

I did nothing but try to aid you in your adolescent quest for answers. I will be the first to say it because I'm not a coward like you, who runs away from the truth. He may bring you happiness, but if a person has enough influence on you to turn you against your own blood, I only hope that some day soon you will realize how disturbing that truly is. The piercing words I won't ever let you take back are mine to keep for a lifetime. So I'm finished trying. From here on out, you're on your own. This song was always intended for you, not me.

Don't test the ones you love
it'll only tear us down.
If you want to feel alive
then learn to love your ground."