These Bonds

I've been thinking about old bonds. Ones still whole, others artificial, and others severed. Some distant, some new. It's been a heavy load to carry- all these changes in my bonds with other people, whether good or bad. It's really exactly what all the middle aged people say when you graduate High School. "I don't really talk to friends I had in High School anymore." "I lost contact with a lot of my friends from High School when I started college." And so it goes. Garbage, I thought. I could never see such things happening to me. But they did. In ways I am glad that this common thing occurred. Yes, I had lost many people I knew and cared for but I met new people too. And I'm beginning to see just how much the influence of people with different lifestyles and personalities have on me. I feel my fibers mixing and twisting in new ways, shaping a much different person. I have always changed, unbeknownst to myself and though not necessarily a bad thing, to fit in and find my little nitch in groups that I meet.