Inspiration

"The second most important thing a passionate person can do to further their passion into a career is do that 'something.' For example, if you want to be a writer, write. If you want to be an artist, draw. If you want to be a game developer, develop a game." Funny how just the simple act of surfing the web for career help can lead you to articles such as this one. So this is where the article brought me. I'm not a very confident person, and I've come to accept that. Especially after my horrific failure in the attempt to become a Veterinary Technician at Joliet Junior College. But that's a long story I don't really feel like reliving just yet. Anyway, my lack of confidence is basically a ball and chain attached to my ankle all the time. It stops me from doing things that I want to do. Or maybe I start doing something and begin to doubt my skill and quit. Frankly, I'm tired of it. Stumbling upon this eye opening quote inspired me enough to get the hell out of the hole I always pre-dig for myself and start getting serious. I honestly have no idea what I want to do in the future, and it scares the crap out of me. Right now I have no future as far as I'm concerned. I'm a part-time working, college drop out. And while I do like to be spontaneous most of the time, having no map, no plan, no freaking blue prints to my future is probably the most frightening thing that's ever happened to me. I can never see past the day I'm living in. It's all consistent and gray. 

I've always liked two general topics- writing and art. If I am to get serious about finding the career for me, I might as well start there, right? So I'll be blogging for god knows how long. As for art, I'll probably doodle now and then. I've always done the bare minimum of the things I like to do because I always end up beating myself up for my lack of skill I thought I had. I never let myself believe that I could possibly be good at what I was doing. Maybe I was afraid to admit it, who knows. But I'm going to try to change that now.