Faker

It's been a while. But I suppose that's how it goes. Feeling like a pill popping faker. Feels like me, but isn't. Not completely. Feeling empty, feeling blue, feeling lost, feeling lonely. All these feels and there's just one me. Too much to face on my own, but got no one else. Don't wanna walk alone but don't wanna be part of this disgusting race. Each day I hate human beings more and more. They're selfish, ungrateful, and mean. So then I guess I hate myself since I am a human being. However, I don't think that I am selfish, ungrateful, or mean. So then what am I? Am I in between or nothing at all? I don't know which I'd rather be. Either would probably be better. I am good, I swear I am. So then why don't I feel good?