Wednesday, August 21, 2013

To Keep in Mind:


  • Continue eating healthy
  • Learn to be happy with yourself, as an individual
  • Drink more water
  • Keep busy, lest your mind wanders to negative things- which brings me to:
  • Don't think so much!

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Nos Vemos Luego


I was finally able to send my little sister off to college this year. Gonna really miss her. I feel better knowing where she is rather than imagining it though. Can't wait to start my visits. :)


Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Untitled (A poem by my mommy!)

I'm so proud of my mom! She wrote her very first poem and asked me to edit it a little bit. Might do some more editing on it, but so far I think it sounds good. :)


Hold my hand while we walk
the streets, hold me tight
while we watch the sunset
Look into my eyes
while we make love

You guarded your heart
and I didn't know how
to protect mine

Without love for many years-
I let you in, I thought you were kind
I thought you were true
I know now you're beginning
a new journey, a journey
where you will meet others
find yourself, find your peace

But if you do not want love,
don't hold their hand, or watch
sunsets or look into their eyes
Because when it's time
to say goodbye, they will miss you
with a broken heart

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Same Old

I can't tell you how many times I've been asked the questions, "Where do you go to school and what are you going for?" It ceaselessly follows me like a drenched dog that you don't want shaking it's slobbery, wet body by you. But oh, it shakes, and leaves you feeling slimey, gross, and wondering, 'How the hell did I end up here?'

These are not simple small-talk questions that you can ask me, people!

There are hidden complexities, uncertainty, and an array of other ridiculous emotions that come with asking these questions. I've grown so numb to the familiar words that all I utter now is "I don't know" to get them all to shut up and stop reminding me of the misery I face in my own head every day. I apologize for not muttering something exciting like Geneticist or Doctor to make your miserable day a little better. This is me, remember? I do the bare minimum and get by- do you really think I have planned that far ahead? By now, most of the people I went to high school with are rolling in a steep salary. Good for them, but as much as I'd like to be making that kind of money, I'd like to figure out how to get there first by taking my time.

As of right now, I am regrettably attending college to quell my parent's desires. That's how it's been since I started. But hopefully soon, I will start attending college for me too, for something that I actually want to learn about as a career.