I Miss Someone, Somewhere

I miss someone, somewhere. She is stale, she is a ghost, her features completely changed by a source I do not know. A source that we both drove and did not. I hurt and we hurt together in the facade that was our friendship, but I enjoyed it. Did you? Because now that I'm better I've reached out to grab the air where your arm should be. And once again I feel the white, aching pain of loneliness that teeters on the edge of stupidity. Why should I waste my precious breath reaching out after our mistakes and be met with a stone wall of white? I recognize this idiocy with great irritability but cannot stop. I'll tell you why: the fond memories are too good to pass up.

Relapse

Don't know, been off the past few days. Maybe it's time this nice streak ended. And though I'll mourn the leave of the person I was able to become, I'll mourn more for becoming who I used to be.

My Name is Bree and I'm Happy

:/

Took Chica to the vet yesterday and got some alarming news...But I think we caught it early enough. She's going to need surgery. I'm really scared. I hope my best friend will be okay.

Just Be Happy

I wish the people that I love could be happy.

The Past Really is Just Past

Except now I can say it and believe my own words. I was reading some things on here from my past self and I'll admit I'm a bit shocked. Who was that person?

A Little Bit of Steinbeck

First book on the list: The Red Pony. Hey, found it at the end of my neighbor's driveway among other novels several years ago so why not? It's short and travel-sized, got an interesting enough story to keep me reading. It's old as dirt and I like that. Probably going to keep the old trend going with other books I've got lined up such as Where the Red Fern Grows and The Catcher in the Rye. I'm committed to this reading thing. ;)

Things Ahead

Finishing up school tomorrow and then I can finally focus on my personal goals. Gonna try to get more immersed in poetry and books over the summer, and of course, I'll still make time for some summer fun as well. Although a lot of things are going to change by the end of this year, I can see that somehow this summer will still be great. I've got a great boyfriend, family, friends, and more importantly, a great life. Things are looking up and I'm eager to see what lies ahead.

Drug Dreams

Vivid dreams about reality swirled in reality and it's hard to decipher what happened or what actually happened and what really exists and what doesn't most of the time.